I hate being idle, but
sometimes, it's a good thing for me.
Right now I'm bumming at my mom's house. I've been spending hours pouring over
youtube videos, like I'm trying to find myself in other people's
messages. The funny thing is, I think it's working! As much as people
hate on each other on youtube, there are some really inspirational
people who are just trying to get their message out there, and they
do it! It's within these messages that I'm finding pieces of myself. Here's some people who have been helping me find my way:
Freelee aka The Banana Girl
Harley aka Durianriders
Recently found this lady, Elena aka Vegleteinspire
I've been attracted to
fruitarianism for a long time. I first learned about fruitariainism
when I first heard about breatharianism from a friend of mine. While
I do not at all think that being a breatharian is a good idea (this
is a whole other subject), researching breatharianism is what brought
me to fruitarianism. There's a "weaning off" method out
there to breatharianism, where you go from a Standard American Diet
to vegetarian to vegan to raw foods to fruitarian to ultimately
living on prana. Fasting is a part of this process as well. I do
believe I experienced a breatharian state for 2 weeks – I had
incredible energy levels, my singing voice was improved, my yoga
practice was enhanced, my meditations deeper, my overall happiness was
unbelievable. Perhaps this was a prana experience, or perhaps it was
simply a fasting high. I neither ate nor drank during this period.
However, after those 2 weeks is when breatharianism turned into
disordered eating – probably because I was discovering what it was
like to be on a binge-starve cycle. ANYWAY – what I learned from
all this is that yes, there may be a spiritual experience called a
breatharian state – as I may have experienced it – but I do not
believe that this state is supposed to sustain life. It is a
spiritual experience and nothing more, and perhaps could last longer
for other individuals. Nonetheless, the body is a machine, like a
car, and needs fuel. Prana is not nearly as accessible as fruit, and
when fruit is so readily available and so perfect – well, it's the
more logical option.
So many beautiful fruits...
Mother Nature knows what best for us!
So many colors, how could you ever get bored??
That was a rant, but I'm so
thankful to be sorting out my thoughts on this. As I poured over these youtube videos, I just kept thinking – so many people are doing
this, and it's so simple – if I just use the mind power I used when
I was starving myself (but in a much more positive, uplifting way), I could really make some bounds and do some great good for my body. My goal isn't to be 100% fruitarian – maybe
someday, but not for 2013. My goal is to eat mostly mono-fruit meals
as much as possible, and to always eat a 100% vegan diet. This is the
path that I think will be most beneficial to my health and the least
socially isolating. I think it's healthy to be flexible and not treat
a diet like a religion – "I ate something other than a fruit
today so I'm sinner!" is not a good mindset. Rather, stick to
the mono-meals, and live life as it comes.
I'm so excited to embark on
this path. The time feels right. So many other people are doing it –
there's no reason I can't! As soon as I get home from visiting
family, I am stocking up on bananas, dates, and all the other
seasonal fruits I want! I will be in sweet fruity heaven and my body
will thank me for it.
I will always wonder what
it would be like to be at my ideal body weight and have the perfect
body. That is a HUGE thing I need to keep in mind. Fruit is perfect,
so it results in a perfect body. Isn't that what everyone wants??
It's what I want – and to have the energy to go for hours on end,
to be happy, to be healthy, to love, and live life to the fullest!
This is what fruit has to offer me. And that is why I am doing this.
Fruit is freedom. Fruit is
health. Fruit is life. Fruit is perfection.
Take care lovelies xoxo
Kayla Marie
(a photo of me for you since it's been awhile!)